Seriously, Why do people not thing about other people

Do you ever feel like you have given too much? Been there too often? Hindered someone from growing cause you are always helping? What is too much and what is too little? HOW does one ever learn when to say NO? Will I ever hear that little word that one so desperately longs for? Thank you? Can one really go insane cause one gave too much?

Sometimes I wonder....

why does one have friends? Or should I wonder what is a friend? Do I have a friend? how do I know if I have a friend? What is a real friend? Am I a real friend and to whom am I a real friend? Would I be there when everyone else gave up on this person? Have I been there too long and that is why this person does not change or grow? How do i know? What am i to do? When will I ever find out?

I don't know what to do, I want to cry, to scream, to be angry, but I let them run over me, I let them push me down, I turn the other cheek and I let them take advantage of me...but when is it enough at what point will i say I will not take it anymore? What would my Lord do? When would he turn away. We beat him, spit on him and yet he died for us? Am I willing to die? To give up everything that I own? What am I willing to turn away from what will i let go of? A TV? some money? a car? how far am I willing to go? Will I still be there for them when they are down in the dumps again. how much thankless ness am I willing to take? On one hand is my fault and the other it is their lack of conscience. Why cant they see that I love them, and they are kicking me in the face? Why cant I see what I have done to my Lord every time I sin against him? Lord forgive me and teach me to be a thankful woman, One that glorifies your name no matter what may come my way. Help me to stand strong to revel yourself in me. You are the strong tower that I can run to, the strength that Lies within me. you are my All in All.

Last night!!!

Yesterday i was sick most of the day, but...I am starting to feel a little better. i think that I am catching a cold. Last night we went out to dinner....but you know...Spain is weird. There are no restraunts open at normal hours. I have to say that they do not eat here until around 9 or 10 at night that is when all the resteraunts open....I do not understand that. At 10 we met up with group to go to a tapa bar...that was fun. They had live music and they had alot to eat. After that we went and looked at the stars on the beach. I loved that part. But at times the others can be annoying. Later that night I got one of the guys a taxi back to the hotel he was so drunk...It kills me to see the "adults" letting the minors drink....they arent considered minors here, but it still makes me mad.

Today we woke up late and went down to the floating mall and picked up those last few suvioneers and then headed over to the beach again. Interestingly enough.....we found out that it was a nude beach.....VERY SHOCKING:....wow some people should NOT take off their clothes in public!"!!!!  So we headed back to the hotel because it started raining....it is like a cattle prod on the subway, everyone was pushing and shoving. Tonight we are all having dinner together....its the last one. I am going to miss everyone!!!

Well better go....its costing a fortune to write this...I will see America soon...Tomarrow at 7:30pm I will arrive home!!!!! YEah...I miss the USA!